I figured this time around things would just be more chill you know, and yes, I'm talking to you Missy, the one typing right now. Please try not to get ahead of yourself by creating such unrealistic expectations to commit to this or anything of the sort (yes I know what you're thinking, because surprise, surprise, I am you!)
After 2 decades of living as yourself you should know better by now just how bad you are with committing to basically anything. And no, dearest self, this attempt does not have to be perfect. Just chill woman, you love writing! Take it easy, treat this post like a new fling if you please, live in the moment and just see where things go from here. Might work out, might not, and that's completely fine hun.
You got this, no strings attached.